Guilt-Ridden [Gypsy]

[Gypsy]

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[atrb=background,http://i50.tinypic.com/34z0jf9.jpg] There was another spasm the took a firm hold on her. She had no control, she just wanted it to be over. One ear did perk up at his statement. Something WAS wrong. It felt like lead was being dragged through her belly. An almost worried look crossed her face, she didn't want to die, no she was in her prime. She still had at least half a century left to see. No surprise, she was only worried about herself, she could careless about the guzzling tumors on her teats. With one final push, everything came out, the excess birth, tissue some blood and one more wet body. This one did not wriggle though. It was splayed awkwardly in the grass, surrounded by all the mess. Gypsy did turn to see this one. Though her face would not show it, she was glad she got one of them at least. She looked at the creatures that lived at her belly. No motherly love in her eyes, just an icy, blank stare.

[Raleigh (Rawls)]

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[atrb=background,http://i437.photobucket.com/albums/qq94/NuckyGirl/rawlsrawls-1.png] The female gave birth to a stillborn pup. The small puppy looked crooked and like a ragdoll. It was a half formed creature, and Raleigh saw that she had peered at the dead baby wolf. The whelping seemed to be finished. Gypsy looked like a mother, even if she didn’t feel like one. Her fur was unkempt and her expression, no matter how icy and blank, was still hollowed from fatigue. Her tail was stained with birth. And Raleigh, he only wanted to have her and keep her safe. In his eyes, despite her fiery demeanor, she was fragile. He had almost killed her and he only wanted her forgiveness because he had also almost saved her. This relationship seesawed between hatred and adoration from Raleigh’s end. It only jumped from amusement to loathing through the female’s eyes. Even Raleigh could see that. If only he could influence her to say yes to him. It was one mistake. Just one mistake and it cost him her forever. Raleigh still didn’t know how lucky he was that she would refuse to be his mate. His love, his true beautiful female. He was shackled still to the idea that one day, she would say yes. And finally, he voiced his question to her tired form. She was finished with her labor, Raleigh could tell. She probably didn’t want to discuss these things. But he still wanted to know so much. Besides, she was beautiful as a mother. “Will you ever love me?” And Raleigh mentally reached out to hold onto the yes he already knew would never come.

[Gypsy]

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[atrb=background,http://i50.tinypic.com/34z0jf9.jpg] She closed her eyes trying to push everything out, the pregnancy had been a catalyst for her anger. Now it was over and she was exhausted, she was numb, she didn't care about anything or anyone at the moment. Her inner turmoil was raging. Her callous mask was slipping if only momentarily. She laid her head down on the cold dirt, just trying to recover. Her ears twitched when she heard him speak to her, she did not even bother to lift her head or open her eyes to respond to him, she merely said "I do not love anyone." She did not have the energy to play games of deception. She had loved once, it almost killed her. 'Never again' was a motto she had been repeating for a hundred years. She felt dirty and messy, she wanted to crawl into the river to to wash away the birth and grime that had gotten all over her. Dirt never usually bothered her, but the idea of how she got this dirt on did. She wanted to wash away the event and go on with her life.